I promise I’ll be back soon

I want to keep writing here. I’m trying. I’ll be back soon x

In the meantime go to http://www.adhdsa.com.au … I’m trying to start an entire statewide support and information service network, and if you’ve got something to offer, I’d love you to help out.

Contact me via the link (top right) on the homepage over there, if you can help. Subscribe and share me if you wouldn’t mind. Send your ADHD suffering peeps my way to jump on the real info bandwagon with me. If you have it – let me know! Volunteer to be profiled, share your best links or online information, and if ANYONE is in South Australia – whatever you can offer locally is welcome 🙂

Thats what I’m trying to do. And recover – badly managed ADHD (lately anyway). Intensely horrendous grief (my Dad dying has basically fucked me up as much as I expected it to…), heavy depression, and all of it triggering a great cascade of every prior mental health event in my life it seems – so all the GAD and other anxiety issues – bam. Back. All the PTSD I didn’t get, ohhh I’ve got it now, for a number of different traumas, too the bugger – and all the work I did for all of that to succeed in what was basically self-counselling – GONE GONE GONE… I’ve got all the things I worked hard to escape or recover from, all at once, plus stressful real life AND cranky pants at the decimation of my work on top.

Oh, what joy it is to be Curious Kels in 2017 :\ Still waiting to catch a break, a breath, and a chance to just exhale without another slap of universe-negativity in my reality. Just a moment….

I am glad for the health of my kids, my beautiful friends and my (barely hanging in there) sanity. Otherwise, OMG I’m cage fighting the universe right now, only I’ve got nothing but a bitch slap.

It’ll be ok. Eventually. It must be.

 

PS my eldest turned 18 and he’s a lovely, on track, not rebellious, respectful of his mother boy. WOOHOO! #proudmum …
Ok, see you soon xo

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The Long Road East

I began my first solo long distance drive today, touching three states and spreading 1500 kilometres from go to woe. I’ve wanted to do this drive – or one like it – for quite some time now so I am glad it is finally happening. I just wish that which I was driving toward wasn’t this.

My life is open ended at the moment and I’m not sure how I feel about that. I hope I don’t float away and can find a solid point to which I can tether myself.

I don’t know hat tomorrow looks like. I’d really prefer just to close my eyes and skip this part.

I don’t know what will happen, how it will happen or what it will feel like. I don’t know my role, my position, my access.

The destination is frightful but the journey is one I am trying hard to savour.